1---
 2title: "School..."
 3description: "I'm starting a new challenge where I'll write a blog post every day."
 4author: Amolith
 5cover: /assets/pngs/calendar.png
 6tags:
 7  - Personal
 8  - School
 9  - 100 Days To Offload
10date: 2020-04-25T22:12:40-04:00
11draft: false
12---
13
14A fedizen, [Kev Quirk,](https://kevq.uk/) issued a challenge (dead link to fedi
15post) yesterday and I decided to take him up on it. In the time between then and
16now, he's actually set up a website for participants to submit their posts; it's
17called (quite fittingly) *100 Days To Offload* (dead link to website). I'm going
18to attempt to keep up with it for the next 100 days and see where it takes me.
19Because I'll be using this blog every day, expect a lot of changes and
20improvements. With that out of the way, here goes!
21
22---
23
24Part of this challenge is "offloading" and one of the ways that word can
25be meant is to lay out everything that's on your mind. Today, that's
26school. I'm generally an *incredibly* laid-back person; I don't really
27ever get stressed about anything. That is simultaneously a good thing
28and a very bad thing. Because I don't really get stressed, I don't feel
29the urgency of getting homework done, communicating with professors
30about late assignments, studying, the works. In the past, I've enjoyed
31the content I was learning so the fear of making a bad grade was never a
32motivator---it was interest in the subject and a natural curiosity.
33Right now, I'm not interested in any of my subjects except for German.
34It's very unlikely that I will be dealing with Java in the workforce,
35Discrete Math is boring, and Calculus II is *killing* me.[^1] I don't
36even know if I'll pass it this semester.
37
38And yet...I'm still not stressed. My university implemented an optional
39pass-fail grading system in light of the pandemic and the physical
40campus shutting down. If a student is making an A, they will definitely
41opt out. If a student is making a C, the minimum required to move on,
42they will opt in. This mean the C will remain on their transcript *but*
43it won't affect their GPA. For those wanting to get into grad school
44(me), it is a god send. I have been so lax this semester about doing
45*anything* for my classes that I will very likely end up opting in for
46all of courses except German. As I said above, I don't even know if I'll
47make a C in Calculus though that isn't just because I haven't done all
48of the work; I have one of the most difficult professors in the math
49department.I am worried but I'm *very* good at keeping that in the back
50of my mind under many many layers of keeping myself busy. It's a bit
51like that meme of the dog saying "this is fine" while the house burns
52around him except I'm not looking at the fire. My head is craned towards
53my monitor, my fingers on the keyboard, and my mind is somewhere in a
54server in Germany ignoring every bit of it.
55
56This is very much a badly-written ramble and I'm not even going to read
57through it before posting. I don't like talking about this kind of thing
58but it feels good to get it off my chest, even if it is garbled and
59likely hard to read. I will try to only have a single "downer" post like
60this in the series; I have a few ideas for much better content.
61
62---
63
64This is published as part of *100 Days To Offload* and is not indicative of the
65rest of the content there; most of it is much more positive. To join in, simply
66write a post, submit it here (dead link), and use `#100DaysToOffload` somewhere
67on your social media.
68
69[^1]: I actually took the course last semester and ended up dropping it
70    because my grade was so bad right out of the gate.