1---
 2title: "School..."
 3description: "I'm starting a new challenge where I'll write a blog post every day."
 4author: Amolith
 5cover: /assets/pngs/calendar.png
 6tags:
 7  - Personal
 8  - School
 9  - 100 Days To Offload
10date: 2020-04-25T22:12:40-04:00
11draft: false
12---
13
14A friend of mine, [Kev Quirk,](https://kevq.uk/) issued [a
15challenge](https://fosstodon.org/@kev/104053977554016690) yesterday and
16I decided to take him up on it. In the time between then and now, he's
17actually set up a website for participants to submit their posts; it's
18called (quite fittingly) *[100 Days To
19Offload.](https://100daystooffload.com/)* I'm going to attempt to keep
20up with it for the next 100 days and see where it takes me. Because I'll
21be using this blog every day, expect a lot of changes and improvements.
22With that out of the way, here goes!
23
24---
25
26Part of this challenge is "offloading" and one of the ways that word can
27be meant is to lay out everything that's on your mind. Today, that's
28school. I'm generally an *incredibly* laid-back person; I don't really
29ever get stressed about anything. That is simultaneously a good thing
30and a very bad thing. Because I don't really get stressed, I don't feel
31the urgency of getting homework done, communicating with professors
32about late assignments, studying, the works. In the past, I've enjoyed
33the content I was learning so the fear of making a bad grade was never a
34motivator---it was interest in the subject and a natural curiosity.
35Right now, I'm not interested in any of my subjects except for German.
36It's very unlikely that I will be dealing with Java in the workforce,
37Discrete Math is boring, and Calculus II is *killing* me.[^1] I don't
38even know if I'll pass it this semester.
39
40And yet...I'm still not stressed. My university implemented an optional
41pass-fail grading system in light of the pandemic and the physical
42campus shutting down. If a student is making an A, they will definitely
43opt out. If a student is making a C, the minimum required to move on,
44they will opt in. This mean the C will remain on their transcript *but*
45it won't affect their GPA. For those wanting to get into grad school
46(me), it is a god send. I have been so lax this semester about doing
47*anything* for my classes that I will very likely end up opting in for
48all of courses except German. As I said above, I don't even know if I'll
49make a C in Calculus though that isn't just because I haven't done all
50of the work; I have one of the most difficult professors in the math
51department.I am worried but I'm *very* good at keeping that in the back
52of my mind under many many layers of keeping myself busy. It's a bit
53like that meme of the dog saying "this is fine" while the house burns
54around him except I'm not looking at the fire. My head is craned towards
55my monitor, my fingers on the keyboard, and my mind is somewhere in a
56server in Germany ignoring every bit of it.
57
58This is very much a badly-written ramble and I'm not even going to read
59through it before posting. I don't like talking about this kind of thing
60but it feels good to get it off my chest, even if it is garbled and
61likely hard to read. I will try to only have a single "downer" post like
62this in the series; I have a few ideas for much better content.
63
64---
65
66This is published as part of *100 Days To Offload* and is not indicative of the
67rest of the content there; most of it is much more positive. To join in, simply
68write a post, submit it here (dead link), and use `#100DaysToOffload` somewhere
69on your social media.
70
71[^1]: I actually took the course last semester and ended up dropping it
72    because my grade was so bad right out of the gate.